I honestly hate everything about most people I encounter these days, but I still strive to be ’someone’ in a country full of nobodies. Life can be so utterly frustrating, I wish I could get to the good part already, but I doubt that there will ever be a good part that I could look back on and be like, this was the greatest part of my life because basically it all sucks balls. On Wednesday, I went to court for my shoplifting offense, and nothing happen AT ALL because the judicial system sucks balls too. I tried to talk to the prosecutor to see if he could cut me a deal because it was my first offense, but apparently not. He basically told me that I needed a lawyer that I definitely can not afford. I mean I didn’t even put my application in for a public defender in because it cost 200 dollars to just get the paper work moving, but supposedly they are going to waive the fee.
The semseter is finally coming to an end and I have to admit I am really excited because I get a few months of not doing anything relatively important. Besides that I am just going to be working at Game Stop and looking forward to my 21st birthday and hope it doesn’t blow chunks. But it probably will because I really don’t have anything planned at all, whatever that is just life. My social life is basically not even existent but I think I made that happen because I am really anti-social and pushy sometimes. I am on this New Found Glory kick and I can’t stop listening to them it’s kind of annoying because I haven’t listened to them in a really long time. But I have to admit that I really love them more than a person should love a band, they are definitly at the top of my list.
It’s so nice out today, Wahh. I want to do something but I have no idea what. I’ve been up since 9am and it’s kinda of bugging me out now. My nose is hurting at this point, the major reason I woke up was because my nose starting to bleed on my arm and the blood was cold by the time it hit my arm and it freaked me out. And than one of the scabs came out of the left nostril and it just doesn’t really feel good. I’m a mess, I need someone to take care of me. Lmao, Fuck that. I kinda just wanna get drunk just for the fact that I haven’t in a few months, really pointless. Someone took my bottle of Jack Daniels out of my trunk. I am convinced it was my mom and it pisses me off. Oh well, I can’t get it back now, I am just going to have to suffer like all the other sober people out there.
